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Five Years Time
03:18
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I’m not ready but you seem to be
And as long as you’re happy
Well then it’s fine by me
But I still eat sea glass
To remind me of what was
When we met I was cracking
You sewed my fragments back up
Well in five years time
Will you just walk right past me
Like I always feared you could
Yes in 5 yrs time
Will we even recognize each other
I always hoped that we would
I’m not like you I’m broken
At least that's what they say
You drown men in hours
I like to take fourteen days
You can kill ‘em with kisses
But what have I got to show
I shudder at the thought of love
‘Cause love’s the only thing
That I have never known
Well in five years time
Will you just walk right past me
Like I always feared you could
Yes in five years time
Will we even recognize each other
I always hoped that we would
And I’ll never forget you
Or the ridges on your knees
But I’m tired of fighting in the dark
For something I can no longer see
And yes I disappeared
But not for the reasons that you think
I’m drowning in sea salt
You’ve only tasted the kitchen sink
Well in five years time
Will you just walk right past me
Like I always feared you could
Yes in five years time
Will we even recognize each other
I always hoped that we would
Oh in five years time
You may walk right past me
But I will deal with my own pain
‘Cause in five years time
Even if we don’t recognize each other
I could never regret a thing
I could never regret a thing
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2. |
Have a Look
04:06
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You paint while I lay in bed
You tell me people like me deserve to be seen
Those words are opening for a girl unaware
That she is interrupted by everything
Who would’ve known
That I would grow
Into a woman made of flesh
Made of stone
You break my hand then you break my foot
You say this will keep me inside the house
Well I walk for miles on my broken bones
And I shake the hand of every man I meet
When I go out
‘Cause I am not here for you
I am not here for you
I am not here
Friends come over and I smile too wide
These days I just don’t have much left to say
Words taste like hollow sips of wine
Intoxicating but with no taste
But I will speak out of turn
I will not learn from you
I’m a girl unaware and unconcerned
You strip me down and cut off all my hair
I am now a canvas for you to paint
I am opening
I am bare
I can only be seen
When you’ve covered every piece of me
Look what you did
Look what you took
Go ahead
Have a look
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We talk about nothing
With eyes glazing over
Touching so lightly
Afraid we will break
But when all your are given
Is something so feeble
The slightest caress can make you bleed
I wake up one day and it feels like returning
But I feel like this body’s not mine
Where there used to be wings and feathers
There are arms made of nettle and bone
All tied up in twine
You say that it’s nothing
And you look like you mean it
But this time your voice wilts a bit
So I just go back to singing
Your favorite swan songs
Is this how we’ve learned how to live
We hold hands on Sundays in front of your parents
Hoping they won’t see the cracks
I was so blind by the blush of a new love
I cry in the bathroom not knowing how to get it back
I say that I’m tired
So we don’t have to carry a conversation
Neither of us wants
We’ve become whispers
Lingering in doorways
Is this how we’ve learned how to haunt
We sit at a table in a room filled with people
We’ve let silence become a threat
You reach for my hand
And I flinch just a bit
I don’t think I can let you touch me yet
You pull away
And you look at the ceiling as if
What we’ve lost has risen up above
You look back down and I look away
Is this how we’ve learned how to love
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I know soon you will rise
But I just can’t stand to be that tall
My man in the moon is rising
And my fragile bones
Cannot withstand the fall
And I can’t go
I can’t go
I can’t go
I can’t go
The lights are more so blinding
than leading me through the dark
It’s so much easier to stay here
Than to try and restart
And I can’t go
I can’t go
I can’t go
I can’t go
There’s a boy who’s toneless
And a girl who smiles like cracked glass
To touch her would hurt you
But damn she’s so beautiful to look at
And I can’t go
I can’t go
I can’t go
I can’t go
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5. |
Samson
03:14
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Samson holds me close
‘Cause he thinks he knows
That I will not run
I will not run
But little does he know
I don’t hold this bird in my mother’s locket for fun
For fun
He gifts me with jewelry for the cruelty to me
That he thinks he inflicts
But little does he know
He never could have broken me
I just have a mind that can’t be fixed
I have a mind
Samson thinks he knows
What he will find on the inside
And outside of me
Like blood and hair and teeth
But little does he know
That I am salt and cloth and lemon rind
And my insides are my secret to keep
My mother’s in my veins
We buried her on the beach on Sunday
She liked to look at the sea
One day we’ll all be gone
And the fish will start walking on the land
And this will all just repeat
This will all just repeat
Samson thinks I’d care
If he left me I think I’d tear a piece of my hair out
And break a dish or two
But then I’d just move on
To the land I’m meant to wander on
And I would find a man who could be true
Yes I’d find a man who could be true
Look who’s running
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Lila Blue New York, New York
LILA BLUE (they/she) is a 23 year old non-binary and queer folk musician, singer-songwriter, playwright and performer based out of Brooklyn. Their projects navigate themes of grief, joy, intergenerational trauma, rage, queerness and collisions with divine and haunted spirits, stemming from their own intuitive practices. They've released 3 LP’s, 2 EP’s, with LP 4, SWEET PEA, arriving 11/10/23 ... more
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